reality check

yesterday, was a really good day... i had my interview (it went really well) i got out of class early, chrystal called me... i haven't talked with her in a few months, it was really good to catch up. and i started reading EAST again last night. (just one of those things i guess...) there were some bad parts.i missed ryans call, and i argued with my dad. chad wasn't here, he went to steevo's... so at the occasional friday night dinner last night, my dad started talking with me about my plans. my goals. where i saw myself in three years... i'm so tired of this... i realized yesterday, that i'm finally breaking through, i'm finally going through my metamorphasis, and i'm not sure if i want to meet him on the otherside... he kept pushing the argument at me... it didn't end badly, but it didn't end well. he laughed at me. again... he laughs at me... we're both stubborn people. VERY stubborn people. he's abrasive, and i'm sensitive... so it clashes both ways. even if he's right, i don't want to say he's right. ugh... i also talked with my mom last night... it was very enlightning. she was there for the conv. with my dad, and she says she can see where i'm coming from because the same thing used to happen to her. i was surprised... i think i have this perception of my mom which isn't necessarily true. i've been wondering where i stand with her. chad's the golden boy, and caleigh's like her second chance you know? but i realized last night, that she really is a remarkable person. she's dealt with a lot throughout her life... and maybe i should give her more credit.... i guess it just doesn't occur to me. and i feel awful about it.. i mentioned to her that i was excited because the renaissance fair is the same day as my andrew bird concert, and that maybe that way, i would have a way to coerce someone into going with me if we could go to the fair beforehand... and she was like... you know i've always wanted to go to the renaissance fair... (my mom's one of those history junkies... if there's something old, she needs to go... i can't even tell you how many houses i've walked through in my time :) and so, just like that, my problem is solved. we decided.. or i decided haha that oct. 25 is going to be mom and daughter day. she said she would go to the concert with me... i hope she likes it. i make her listen to him all the time haha. she was the one who picked me up from bma, and when limbaugh was done, i got control of the music. :) the more i think about this, the more i like it... i really think it's going to be a great day for the both of us. definitely long... but i think it'll be worth it....