new experience.

last night, i had so much trouble going to sleep... i had to take another pill, i think it made it worse because i knew i had to go to work in the morning. i had a lot of trouble waking up too... it took me a good 3 hours to wake up. but i went to work, and i felt kind of grumpy. people started coming in right at 11:30, and they didn't stop. we had almost every table full for 3 hours. we also had two parties of 20. one came in, and then the other came in after they left. it was so crazy, i was clearing tables, and taking plates, and slipping all over the place... it was insane. i stayed a little later to help clear the food away, but then i had to go straight to my class, so i smelled bad... anyway. while i was working, this really adorable indian woman came up to me and was like "can i speak with you for a second?" and i was like, oh no... i probably spilled something on her or messed up her water, she's going to yell at me, and i'm going to cry, and it's going to be awful... but she was like... "my friend thinks you're really cute and he wants to know if he can have your number." i laughed. really? it just seemed so funny. stuff like that doesn't happen to me. so i was a sport, and wrote it down on a huggies advertisement haha... if he wasn't able to come up to me and ask, then there's a 95% chance he's not going to actually call me. i figured i was safe... the whole thing just seems so weird. i hope that no one else asks... i don't want to be a jerk and say no... but at the same time, if i say yes, they'll think that i'm interested, and i'm not. i don't want to be a rude person. ugh. i feel really strange... i'm supposed to be invisible. i was really counting on that part...
tonight, my cat came and sat on my lap, he was all cuddly, and it was adorable... i still miss it. i miss being able to cuddle with people. tonight, i'm going to sleep... and i'm not going to wake up to an alarm. that's right. i'm gonna sleep in. and in the morning, i'm going to make pancakes. and then i'm going to go exchange my pants, because they're snug.
and i still love you. i'm just cranky tonight. it's not your fault