project

i keep getting the feeling that, soon... i won't be able to work on all of the projects that i would really like to complete. all that i have now, are these stupid little gifts, and surprises that i'm trying to organize. and soon, school is going to start. i'm full time. and dad's trying to set me up with a crazy full time job as a file finding interny type deal at a lawyers office. but i get to wear dressy clothes and talk to people who probably won't remember my name the next time they ask me for something. am i getting to cynical? i'm trying to stay positive. i'm trying to enjoy these days. i'm trying. i really am.

honestly. i don't have anything to complain about. nothing at all. i'm just trying to remind myself that whatever is happening in this silly little life of mine, doesn't really matter... there are people who have worse things happening to them. the complaining should be their luxury. i should be listening. trying to help. instead of wallowing in this stupid little depression of mine. i hate feeling like a selfish little pig.

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