damien

"we drive her 'round and she drives us wild."
i'm back here. i'm back to the point where i don't want to wake up. last night i went to bed. and it took me a good 20 minutes. i kept waking up during the night. and now, this morning. i don't know what to do with myself. it's hard to have a purposeless life. i keep reminding myself that everything will get better in september. because then, i'll be going to school. and everything will work out. and all of this ridiculous funk will be gone. right?
i don't know... i just don't know. i feel really helpless.
"and i know i make you cry, i know sometimes you wanna die, but do you really feel alive without me."