that's what he said to me
exact words.
i don't know why i bother with this
i can't tell you.
it's my mess
i should be able to adequately
handle cleaning it up
right?
right??
where are my reinforcements?
will he ever stop haunting me?
i said goodbye
all of it is done!
there was nothing good
nothing at all
about it
except
i didn't feel alone
it was nice having someone to talk to
someone to share things with
someone to care (even pretending was good enough)
but now it's all gone
and once again
i am by myself
and whenever i reach my lowest,
or highest for that matter
he swings right back around to
put me in my place.
he is a cause that
lost himself
and i'm still crying for him
i still feel responsible
i still feel like i should love him
and i don't
i feel like i'm running around in circles
it is also dark
i also happened to be chained to a block
blindfolded
maybe even hobbled...
i don't know why i put up with myself
goodness... after all this time
you would think i would know better
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