nevermind

yaaaarg
my dad and i
just had this huge
unnecessary blow out
about books, of all things
and i'm tired
of all of these pointless arguments
he almost made me cry
he picked an fight with me
and then just shut down
and i didn't know how to react
i don't know why we're doing this
tensions are high
this is like.. the third fight we've had this week
the first one was because i'm worried about him
and he was all
'don't'
and i was upset
no duh
arg, he tried to convince me
that the family is worried about me
and not him.
i disagreed
but then it turned into this huge blow out
and i'm so sick of fighting
i think
i'm going to change into pajama's
and curl up on the couch with
my huge pillow
and watch flippin' musicals
for the rest of the day

i'm really frustrated
i gained 7 pounds...
since like april
that's a pound a week
so i'm trying to watch
what i eat
so i can go back down
i hate this

i'm surrounded by
this huge cloud
of unwant
and i'm really fed up
let's just skip a few years

and just so quickly
i am slipping right
back into this little
bubble of hate
that i've surrounded myself
with... AGAIN

stupid carly
stupid stupid carly