pretty woman

"People's reactions to opera the first time
they see it is very dramatic.
They either love it or they hate it.
If they love it, they will always love it.
If they don't, they may learn to appreciate it,
but it will never become part of their soul."

i can't sleep. i've been going to bed pretty late the past couple of days... slash since i got home. i'm running out of things to do. i've painted my room. i've cleaned it oh 6 or 7 times, i drew an old man and a baby. i beat monkey island 1 and 2... ugh. (not all in one night) but what am i supposed to do with myself?

so tonight, i'm watching pretty woman... really, i'm a sucker for a cute story. i think though, that my favorite part is when they argue... just the ... the two of them they're so brutally honest all the time. and when they fight. it's not stressful, or scary or anything. it's still okay... which is good. maybe it's stupid, but i've never had an argument with someone where i wasn't scared they weren't going to love me anymore... be it boyfriend, or best friend. even my family... and i'm sitting here at 2:15 am about to cry, because they make it look so easy. (even though their arguments aren't real)and i'm jealous. i'm unbelievably jealous. i want to yell at someone. i want to argue and i don't want to be afraid of whether or not they still want to hang out with me. i want to indulge in a little cofrontation.