thou wouldst fain

hmm, today, and yesterday, and the day before that, and actually this whole week really... i have been feeling rather down. i found this picture on deviant this morning, and i think it is a rather fair representation of my reasoning lately.

i've been working on my speech. i'm slightly aggravated with that, because i was talking with another classmate, and told them what i had planned, and then they gave their speech on what i had told them about... i'm not angry with them, just a little frustrated... they didn't warn me, or let me know and so now i'm trying to figure out if i still want to go ahead and go for it, or if i want to back down and try to scrounge something else up out of nowhere...
i'm a little disheartened.. there are so many things that i want to do, that i want to finish. but i am not allowed to do them, to work on them, to think about them. there are so many other things of pseudo-importance....