burden

summarizing my entire existence right now... into one word
"burden" is what it would be.
the feeling is getting stronger and stronger
and i'm sorry that i can't become someone else
i'm sorry that
my attitude and character have become offensive
i am never what i want me to be
and i am never what you want me to be
but right now, this is WHO i am
i would give anything to change it
but it's not as easy as you think
it should be
so go philosophize
and work around your little theories of
why i'm not doing what you think
i should.
go ahead.
i'm sorry i'm hurting you
"the killers are calling on me"
i'm not sure right now, that you're feelings
are my biggest concern
i know I KNOW how awful it sounds
but for goodness sakes don't tell me
i don't need you to tell me what
an awful person i am
i promise you
i am WELL AWARE

and i would really like it, if
everyone would just
leave me alone
please...
because even though you're trying
to help
you're making it worse
so get the hell out of my shoes
and stop pretending that
if you were me
you would fix it.