attention all of you sentimental jerks

this is post 143...
for those of you coughnikkicough
who know how that is important..
i state this fact

there is snow today
and a part of me wishes that i was
able enough to go and enjoy it
to go and romp around and laugh
my head off.

but then the other part of me realizes that i don't
like being cold
or wet
and i only have to deal with snow for another day
because i'm going home tomorrow
and

fie on you monstrous challenger!
the audacity of self fighting self
is unacceptable here.
ugh.

in other news.
i just found out that i was accepted
to a college that i would really like to
attend.
however, i have no way of paying for this...
or actually getting there.
i don't even know if i will like it once i do get there
and i think i should probably
just go to community college
and get my associates...
i think i've finally figured out what i want
to do with my life.
but i'm hesitant to tell people
because every other time i've
set myself on a goal
and i tell people
they start telling me the negatives
and i don't want to hear them
i think i could really enjoy
this one.
especially because i spend most of my time doing it anyway.
it's something i can be good at.
and happy with.

chad was also thinking that for this summer
i could go and take lessons
and become a child swim instructor
while i pay my way through college..
it's a nice idea.
but i don't think i would like that very much.
i think i would like to work at a diner or something.
become a waitress.
i'll be 18
and it seems like an acceptable occupation.
i think i would enjoy it.
:) perhaps i'll contact my diner.