defluffed.

i washed the pillow that i made in textiles. i was trying to get the camping-ness out of it. but it turned out that i only succeeded in making the shag part come out. so i wasted some time trying to put it back together. and now it looks somewhat normal. i finished painting my room today. i even put a little elephant in the corner. well, not really the corner. he's inbetween my dresser and bookshelf. he's only about two inches... really cute.
apparently i'm babysitting tomorrow. no one let me know. mom is working, dad is working. chad is either working or going to class. so i am left at home alone with the little munchkin. not that i mind. i'm completely okay with this. but at the same time, there wasn't even a "oh hey carly would you mind watching caleigh tomorrow?" or a "since everyone is out tomorrow, will you watch caleigh?" nothing. so, i'm not really sure what i'm going to be doing with the little one. maybe hopefully something fun that she won't resent me for later... i don't know... it could happen.
my dad is trying to decide whether or not he wants to go and work at meadow view. which is all very strange seeing as how they fired him... uhm. but if he works there, i'll be able to go to andrews for dirt cheap. which would be nice. but i'm not sure if i want to go to andrews. i really dislike the adventist system right now. i don't think i want to go dive headfirst into a pool of it. but it would be nice to go live up there. maybe pookie will room with me. i hate that i've been changing my mind so much about all of this. but if i do decide to go to andrews, what will i do about moving in with brianna. all of the first year students need to live on campus. or so i've heard. i wasn't even sure if i wanted to move up there or not. i don't know how capable i am of doing something like that quite yet. i'm freaking out so completely... i just wish someone would hand me directions. i can't really factor in the andrews thing quite yet because dad didn't say if he was going to go in for the interview. i think though. if that works out. i'll definitely end up going to school up there... and we'll see how long i can take it... ugh. why is this all so complicated?