another day, another... ugh

so it's true...
they're getting married...
abel and some... person
i don't even know her name

and as much as this shouldn't bother me
it does.

we broke up in march. and they've been together for a while
long enough to get married anyway...
it's only october...
how many months is that?
seven?
and there are pictures of them from 05...
(am i reading too much into this?)

im happy for him. really i am...
(not)
but, it just doesn't seem like it fits together
i hope he knows what he's doing...
anyways...
i've decided to wash my hands of this nonsense..
completely!

but... it still hurts you know?
a lot

not like i would ever tell him that...
pfff...

sigh... i would like to be okay now
please...?