there are days.

sometimes, when i'm at work... i get this feeling... kind of like an out of body experience... it's strange knowing, that as crazy as things get, and as many mistakes that i make, and however many people are in the restaurant. and how many times people tell me to do things.. and how stressed out i get, that in a few hours. everything will be okay. and it will be like none of it even mattered. sometimes, i walk around, and i don't feel like me. i feel like an 18 year old waitress, trying to get through college. i feel like a completely different person. i can see myself. i can actually watch myself walking around, picking up plates, smiling at customers, and trying to be polite... it's one of the weirdest things.