the only thing that i can come to, is that i deserve this. it's okay for you to laugh at me. it is even right for you to do so. because i deserve it. and it's okay if you find me dull and ignorant. because i am. and i deserve your opinion. i deserve your scorn. and your disdain. and i deserve the yelling and the fighting. for you to turn the light out on me. to leave me cold. i deserve to be dirty and filled with disease. i deserve to be hated.