ah. spring.

this is the time of flip-flops and short skirts, light jackets, and picnics. also, after sporadically shaving my legs over winter, we are back to the once a week routine. bleh. so in order to take advantage of this lovely ritual. i am planning on wearing a skirt tomorrow. but then the weather was all -i'mma electrocute your hopes and dreams- and i was all, oh no she diniinnt.

my morning, was really gross today. i woke up tired, and went to my class. where i forgot to do the reading assignment, and was freaking out that i would have to fail my quiz. but, luckily, my professor just decided to yell at us the whole time. and get angry because we do not measure up to his standards. see, i would normally, just shrug this off, and accept that he is really looking out for our best interests. but... okay starting from the beginning. i go into the class, and he hands out our multiple choice part of the exam. and then proceeds to go over every question, and comment. i am very annoyed. then he gives us our essay final. that has our extra credit question in it. while we were taking our multiple choice exam, he gave us this sheet for extra credit, and called us all up to the front to answer the questions about an object. the object was an indulgence. and we were supposed to answer questions like, what is it, when was it given and why, did he have to pay for it blah blah blah. and apparently there were only two people who got all 5 questions right. i got 4 because i didn't bother to answer the what is its purpose question because it didn't specify if it was talking about past or present... but my professor started yelling at us about how we weren't very good students if we couldn't take the 5 easy points that he was giving us. and then he started yelling at us about our essays. the previous class, he gave us the five possible essay questions. he told us that there would be three on the test, and we would have to pick one. so today, he got angry that people chose the easy question -myself included. telling us how you never want to answer the easy question, you want to answer the hard question. and then decided that it would be a good idea to insult our opinions of school. that this wasn't high school, and that we needed to step up to the plate, and have standards. we need to accept responsibility for our academics. and then went on the if you want to get good grades, you need to do this this this, and this. if you want to pass this class, you need to read the book. you need to study lecture. which is all fine and good. the first 30 times he gave it to us... i understand that people learn by repetition, but really? do you just forget that you tell us these things? i've heard all of his lectures at least 5 times. he just kept going on and on and on, and getting louder and louder, and way more offensive. and then this quiet girl tried to ask him a question, she tried to confront him, because he basically was calling all of us ignorant. she told him that she felt like he was attacking her personally because she answered the easy question, and she got a c. and he basically ripped her head off, screaming and yelling all the more. i was really upset... he kept telling us how this was college, not 13th grade. really? this is bcc. this is where you go, when you don't have enough money to go anywhere else, this is a stepping stone... not the real deal. this isn't 13th grade? no? then why do you keep holding my hand? why do you keep telling me the same information over and over again? why do you give me EXTRA CREDIT? why did you give me the essay question before my test? hmm? because if you really wanted to make sure that i was learning, wouldn't you restrict the amount of help that you're giving me? honestly, all i'm doing is regurgitating the information that you force feed me, and i'm passing your class right? why do i need to try? why should i try if you're handing me my grade? if your standards are SO HIGH why are you working at a community college? are we burdening you by paying to take your class? hmm? this is comparative religion! this is a class you take to get more credits! i seriously doubt that if someone goes into an interview and they're checking the classes, they're going to be like, "oh no, i'm sorry... we can't hire you, because you didn't take comparative religion. sorry.... you fail at life"

i answered the easy question, i got a c. i'm not really too ripped up about it. i know full and well what kind of student i am, where i stand with my grades. i don't really have the motivation to do anything else. and i'm sorry if that's difficult to understand. do i deserve to be yelled at? no. did i deserve a c? no. i may not be the best writer, but i answered the question, all parts of it. he took off a whole letter because i didn't elaborate on one specific sentence. i can understand a few points. but a whole letter? he took off another letter because i had the word "undetermined" in place of a phrase he thought was more expressive. and a point or two for various other unspecified reasons. tell me that's fair.

do you know what really grinds my gears? my professors will start talking, and they'll say one of those phrases with the curse word in there. like "what the hell?" or "oh shit" or you know... whatever. but instead of being honest about cursing in the classroom, they whisper it. because somehow that makes it waaay less obvious.