Just don't think about it.

I went to work on Thursday night, and we were really busy. More busy than I would have expected, and I was all by myself. But it was Valentines day weekend, so I guess I should have expected it... But things were really quick and fast, and stressful. At the end of the night my boss, M, told me that everything was fine, and that no one had complained and everything went well, so I shouldn't worry. My other boss MA had the night off and she was eating with a few friends at a table that I had to serve. I cleaned up everything and as I was vacuuming, M was arguing with the dishwasher, J, pretty loudly, and I was trying not to overhear anything. When they were finished I went on my merry way but J wouldn't look me in the eyes, and M gave me a death glare. I thought it was weird, because both of them had been really nice to me. I didn't really stay on it for very long, and went home. Everything was fine. Well, I got a call Friday afternoon, from M, and she said that some people had complained, and I wasn't the kind of person that they wanted to be a server. I was messing things up that I shouldn't have been so I was fired. I was really upset, so I didn't say anything else. I have no idea what happened... but I can't stop thinking about it. The past few nights it keeps playing through my head. I will admit that things were pretty crazy and I made some mistakes, but that's normal. That's nothing to be fired over. So maybe MA was unhappy with the way that I served her table, and she is the one who insisted I go. Or maybe the argument with J and M had something to do with what I said. I don't know...
But I just can't stop thinking about it. I keep having those stress dreams, where there's a problem and you need to fix it but it's always just out of your reach. As soon as you even get close to some sort of resolution, you wake up.
I've never been fired before... and I could understand it if I had set the place on fire or something... If i had thrown boiling lava hot soup on a customer. If I flashed everybody... something outrageous like that... If I had done something wrong.
I'm upset. I'm offended.... and what do I do now? What am I supposed to do? I'm stuck. I have to get another job, but I'm almost out of school, I won't be staying at anything for very long... I'm scared that I'll be a failure again. I'm just a disappointment...

I could have taken a different position. But I worked with them because I knew them, we were friends. I was trying to do something that would be good for everyone. And I ended up getting the short end of the stick. I wasted my time.