i can't do this anymore... i can't keep strapping myself to people and pretend that they love me too. my friendships are falling apart at the seams, and i'm the only one who seems to notice. or that wants to fix it. my family dynamic is a joke. has been for years. my mental health is being sustained by gluten free fruit snacks and occasional trips for coffee.

i'm a mess tonight and everyone i tried to reach out to. everyone i tried to call... didn't answer. or just didn't care. i don't know, you pick.

tonight, i waited by the phone for 3 hours because i needed to hear someone tell me that they loved me. i needed that. and no one did. not until it was too late... and now i don't believe you.