i can't believe i'm actually doing this

someone asked me what i wanted in a guy
(it's close to valentines day, and so all of the sudden
all the questions come out)
honestly, i don't like making lists because
there's always the chance that i'll end up
disappointed. but i figured i would at least try it
and knowing my luck, if i find this person
he'll be with someone else...
fate thinks i don't deserve relationships...
and oh perfect man... i am unworthy of your charm.

so if any of you are interested, these are some things
that i would really appreciate in a guy

please, be honest with me
and faithful... it would suck if you were
the perfect guy, and you cheated on me... :P
hopefully, he'll at least believe in a higher being
i don't care about religion, i'm not going to ask him to
i want a guy who loves music as much
as i do...
i want someone who likes surprises
giving and getting.
who will appreciate the little messages
and notes that i will most likely leave
on every surface for him.
or who will at least appreciate the
gestures by me for him.
who doesn't think getting flowers is girly
so if i got him roses for v-day
he'd be excited. instead of freaked out
i want someone who will tell me that
i look fat, if i look fat.
who won't tell me what he thinks i want to hear
but instead, what he thinks!
i want someone who will think through
what he's going to do before he does it
but is still capable of being spontaneous
i want someone who is funny, but not ridiculous
someone, who can figure me out
but still leave room for the unexpected.
i want someone who will cuddle with me unashamedly
i want someone who will sing to me or with me whenever
and wherever we are. who doesn't give off
the vibe that he's embarrassed to be with me.
who isn't weirded out by my family
who actually thinks that what i have to say is important
and who will be able to be patient when i can't figure out
what i want to say, who will be willing to work through
problems with me.
i want someone, who i will feel secure with. so i can say stupid
things, and not have them hate me forever. someone who will joke around
and even make fun of me sometimes.
i'm tired of tip-toeing around in relationships.
eventually there is hurt.
and i really don't care what you look like
hygiene is important, but other than that. you can be tall, short
fat, skinny, distorted, perfect, i don't care....
everyone is beautiful...
hmm, okay well mostly everyone :)

and i wouldn't ask anything of you, that i don't feel like i could give you
if the occasion presented itself...


ugh, okay, i'm tired of thinking about this.....