carnation day

i saw you.
outside of my window.
you were standing so sad
your head bent down,
wilting.
i wanted to tell you that,
i know.
you never turned around,
just stood there.
you were in front of a green door.
no one came,
no one passed by.
i wanted to tell you
that even i wouldn't pass by,
if i could,
i would stand with you.
you didn't move.
not even to shift from one foot to the other.
i wanted to ask you
why you were wearing all black,
if someone had left you.
if your heart was as heavy as mine.
you never turned around
so that i could see you.
i wanted to.
i wanted to tell you that you're important.
and still you stand,
waiting.
what are you waiting for?
but then, the green door opened,
and she came out.
she smiled,
she knew.
she knew you.
you were different then.
and even if i couldn't see it,
i knew.
i knew that you were smiling at her too.
and then you lifted
your bright pink shoe,
and walked through the door.