homeleave

my brother called me yesterday
and sadly informed me that he won't be picking me up
for homeleave...
grandma wants him to go up to hacketstown and get some
presents that she sent down with grandpa...
so, i have to go home with my mother.
and my dad said he was thinking about coming
which means, he will... or he'll make some
excuse not to come and sit at home and sell things
on ebay.
i don't even really want them to come up
i know that i'm not going to have any form of civil conversation with
either of them
i don't have anything to say

there isn't any nice left in me... at all
not enough for small talk
or, bma gossip...
and i'm dreading it.