the after party

i'm at my grandma's house
and my dad is telling my grandpa
about his recent escapades in
his new job
that he won't have in the summer
it's temporary
and he knows that he won't be rehired
and so he's got alot more freedom
which is good
and bad in a way

i'm kicking myself in the teeth right now
because
i initiated the second conversation on the....
my life sucks rambles
and
i dunno....
it's just kind of
icky i suppose


so.....




right now...
it's debatable
on weather or not
this has been a good christmas ....